hello to whoever you are

looked like i didn’t give myself enough credit for the likability department

cuctacuctac — Thu, 13 Oct 2011 22:45:09 +0000

so yesterday was my birthday. with birthdays becoming more and more political as you age, as in, there are people that you don’t really like but not inviting them to your birthdays would be really rude, i didn’t plan to do anything. my original plan was to have a quite dinner with two of my friends, ended up with two tableful of people and a very loud dinner.

i was surprised, not when they all came out of the toilet(?!) at the beginning, but when i realised how many people turned up for my birthday. and they all seemed happy to be there, or at least that what i would like to think.

and presents, i got so many. i thought i’ve passed the age but no, still happy as a clam when someone gives something nice.

reflection

cuctacuctac — Mon, 03 Oct 2011 17:05:30 +0000

McKinsey Vietnam called me today, nearly a month after the last interview and a year after i first submitted my CV. it was a rejection. i was surprised more than disappointed. yeah, i was being presumptuous and thought i had it the bag. the feedback was even more of a surprise. positives include strong leadership, ability to make a personal impact while the setback is poor analytical/problem solving and creative thinking. and he gave an example of my second case interview, where i failed to realise that the different in timezone between Africa and America may lead to people rejecting job offers even the salary is very high.

Ok, I think ‘poor’ is a strong word. I may not be the most analytical and creative person but I would still rate myself as above-average in those areas. Especially problem-solving skill. If my problem solving skill is poor, people wouldn’t turn to me for advise, and I wouldn’t have the chance to make a personal impact, would I?

gossip girl – babies are on their way

cuctacuctac — Wed, 28 Sep 2011 14:14:20 +0000

the new season premiered two days ago. highlight: Dan is SO in love with Blair. either that or i’m so in love with Penn Badgley, the one who played Dan in the show. the way he looked at her when she asked why he didn’t tell her the truth about Louis (or Louie or whatever his name is, i mean, what is that character still doing here?), it was like for a moment he forgot about the surrounding, forgot about others watching (me included). he was wholly mesmerised by her.

on an unrelated note, i have been doing too much watching and too little of everything else lately. procrastination is a bitch

on another unrelated note, i started this blog for more than a year ago i believe. still not used to it. took me a while to find out how to add a new post. writing will forever be in my list of ‘things that i want to/ need to do more of’

–later: this is what appeared on the screen after i clicked publish

“This is your 10th post. Impressive! This post has 164 words.”

so i’m gonna make it even more impressive. this post now has MORE than 164 words.

i’m lame

wallpaper

cuctacuctac — Thu, 05 May 2011 21:53:02 +0000

i have been pondering over which picture to set as my wallpaper since i bought my mac. i want something not just pretty pretty, but it needs to make me happy every time i look at it as well. and i just found it!

FOOD

will be dreaming about sushi and steamboat tonight. yum yum

panic panic lah

cuctacuctac — Mon, 02 May 2011 16:37:34 +0000

just had a look at the calendar and realised there will be less than a month before my EXAMS. fuck.

deactivated fb yesterday so this will be my ranting place for now

bin laden died. in an operation conducted by the US. now i don’t have any personal connection with the guy, surprise! in fact since he is kind of the top guy, i doubt that many people can see him face to face since 2001, let alone having a ‘personal’ connection with him. yet he does (or did, or still does) have a handful of devoted supporters, many of whom are living just a bus ride away from me. of course whoever they want to worship is entirely up to them, but god bless, please don’t take your grief out in public. as much as i don’t want to take my exams, it’s still a far cry from dying-so-that-i-don’t-have-to-take-the-exam.

err, there is a guy sitting on a balcony at half past five in the afternoon. can’t see what he is doing but his presence on the balcony at this hour alone, in my dictionary, is the definition of abnormal. strike one.

twenty minutes and he’s still there. strike two.

ok i’m not looking anymore

long time no blog

cuctacuctac — Mon, 25 Apr 2011 23:12:41 +0000

Updates: things that happened in the last 12 months

Graduated with a first, though it had been secured way before that. I got real depressed after receiving my results though. Grades had gone downhill ever since I set foot in university.

Found a job in the summer. I may need to practice talking about it soon. Job application again. Especially the chance of me getting enough mark for continuing my study is pretty slim at the moment.

Found another job at the beginning of my master year. From an unemployed, now I have two part-time jobs. It does drain me out sometimes though. (Sorry I have a tendency of putting the word ‘though’ at the end of my sentence)

And the biggest event is: I got myself a MacBook Pro. With the money that I earned (and about to earn). Financial independence is so awesome yeah. You can buy whatever you want without having to ask anyone. One thing I don’t get though, why someone would try to stop me from buying it. Actually, make it two. Why would someone be pissed when I bought myself something nice? Actually I do know. (Rhetorical questions are my thing!) Have fun being jealous.

banana

cuctacuctac — Fri, 26 Mar 2010 20:41:15 +0000

i don’t like bananas. even though they help you to concentrate or whatever, i just don’t like it. there’s a way for me to enjoy eating bananas though. just put them in the microwave for a few minutes. should smash them slightly beforehand. remember the slightly part. i don’t want to think of myself eating something with puke-like texture.

btw, i found a new YOU. cute. beyond cute. and smart. and shy. and boy, don’t i feel great

where are you?

cuctacuctac — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 00:03:51 +0000

if i didn’t know where you were, i wouldn’t give a crap

but i did. well technically i didn’t. i only knew you weren’t at home, at this hour. and it made me worried. i’m not a control-freak. i can’t control you. you go wherever you feel like going. i can’t control myself either. i can’t stop asking myself where you are, what are you doing.

i wish i didn’t know that i didn’t know. so my very self wouldn’t be giving craps

timeless

cuctacuctac — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:10:37 +0000

i saw you today, being the stupidest person on earth. i hate it that whenever you are with me, your face looks like bread soaked in water. and then when you’re high, you’re off to some god-know-where with god-know-who. actually i do know as well.

i don’t like being a control freak. i don’t care who you hang out with. however it would be nice if you can share both your up and down moments with me, not just the latter. it’s not like i demand too many things from you. what i want you can give me anyway. no one can. so try to do the least of what a friend should be capable of.

and stop asking about my problems in front of loadssss of people. do you think i would answer when you ask like that? i never did such a thing to you. when your friend has a problem, you go talk to him/her, one to one!

i can’t even bring myself to talk to you right now. real mad. mad mad mad.

ludgate circus

cuctacuctac — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 21:31:38 +0000

i saw you… after nearly 2 days of not seeing you. you were tired. you didn’t give a damn. we didn’t talk. i went home right after. wanna ask how things went but you’re not online. i don’t even know why i’m concerned. i’m scared of being too attached to someone. please do take care of yourself, my dear friend.